IV

„I’m going to go with you.” That’s what Jesus tells me. That should be the most encouraging words to go through life with Jesus in my heart, making good things whenever it’s possible.
I often regret. I know He is in me, but He can’t work in me if I don’t listen to His words, if I don’t get some of His words in the right moment. Then comes a sin. Now, I’m more aware of what I’ve done badly, I almost immediately recognize my mistake, very often I have a wish to turn back time. That solution didn’t worked so far;) but at least in the next similar situation I’m warned about how not to act.
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Again I have one song on my mind, it comes for the second time in less than three weeks. “How many times have turned away…” Someone can ask how I can believe in God’s justice while the second person dies in such a short time.
But that’s God’s will, that every one of us will be taken to His kingdom at a time we don’t expect it to happen. We should be prepared and we should wait patiently for the moment when He calls us to be with Him forever.
What can I do now for those people? All is rest is praying for them to be happy with God. Shouldn’t I cry and ask Him “why”? But who am I to ask such questions? It seems like it was the worst moment to take those parents away from their children, but we all know we are tempted, God wants us to get by extreme time, wants to teach us patience, humility, wants us to believe as much as we can that the Holy Spirit sent by Him will help us, we just cannot break down on our faith.
Please, God, take your children to your Kingdom and give the strength to those who were left here on Earth without their closest relatives and friends.

III

I was blind and saw the light.
I like these days when I find out one thought and I can surround it by many others.
Surfing the net I’ve found blog of a guy who writes about making other people happy, he doesn’t care about his own happiness. All that counts for him is seeing others smiling. Nice to know that there are still people who think like that. He also mentions about praying to the Lord for the world to care less about its problems. I left him quite a long note to say I admire his attitude to the world. I hope it will encourage him and keep him still in doing his best for others.
Coming back to the first sentence – since I’ve been close to God I can observe changes He makes in me, the gifts of Holy Spirit working in me. First, I noticed my patience and happiness increased and just after this experience I’ve read a passage from the Bible about Holy Spirit’s gifts. Since that moment I’m entirely sure it is Him who stands upon me and looks after me, holds back temptations. He’s always been near me. The question is why I didn’t notice Him?