VII

Something good is happening to me again. I’m sure now that without help from my Christian friends I wouldn’t be able to provide myself with such faith. Well, faith is one thing, another is being able to follow God’s words and have them on your mind at a time they’re needed most.
Tomorrow’s my friend’s baptism. I’m very excited about it. That’s also a great day for me because that will be the first time I participate in this celebration. Would I ever have a chance to be baptized? I pray for that. Be baptized being aware of that, it is different from “becoming God’s child” in catholic church. This is an unusual moment when you feel you became a child of Christ completely, there’s some hole which you filled in.
Can anybody tell me why is it easier for me to write here my thoughts in English?;)
“God put a smile upon your face”. I feel I finally belong somewhere. I would love my non-Christian friends to feel the same, but will it be ever possible? For some of them probably yes, some of them would never accept my choice. But who can be against me if God is with me?
I’m a bit worried about my China pen pal. I love writing her long e-mails. I can’t wait to next one. Her words are very encouraging and reading them I get this strange but wonderful feeling, that even in the other part of globe there’s someone who cares about me. Didn’t I write it some time ago?